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now i can see e difference between my sis and me when it comes to matters of the heart.when my sis have probs with her guy,she'll confide in me.and im always there to comfort her and to KEEP telling and reminding her to talk things out with her guy.she shouldnt be quiet if she dont like certain things.talk things out slowly and he will understand.but for me,im the opposite.when something bothers me,i rather be quiet.no matter how many times pple tried to ask,i'll just say "im ok lar." or best still-i will just say "oh nothing." i dunno why.ya i noe.how contradicting.hmm..i just dont like telling people how i feel towards things dat reli bothers me.rather suffer in silence.hmm.dats more like it.but those who knows me reli well,will only know how i react to all this.and ya.i dont cry easily.only when i care for someone so much, i put down my ego.i cry not because im weak,not because i want pity or sympathy.bear dat in mind people.i cry coz crying silently is no longer possible.e pain & hurt have become too big a burden to be kept inside.hmm..fyza,i need you.NOW! ('',)
today was RACIAL HARMONY DAY.and for the first time,i dont reli care what i should wear when i open my closet this morning.last resort was my white kebaya coz e others all look so err..'glamorous?haha.like 'over' gtu if i wear.well,wore dat just now so took a cab on my way to school.embarrassing lar.to walk arnd e interchange dressing up like dat.nvm.i only wasted 4 bucks for e cab fare.haha.actually the fare was arnd $4+ but then e driver ask for $4 only.hmm..it must be my sweet smile dat melt his heart.and for that he reduce the amount.HAHA.
i dont trust some guys easily.coz they can easily twist and turn their words around and make us fall for them then they will just walked away after they have made an impact in our life.
but YOU.
YOU are different.i noe u aint like that.i trust u so fcuking much.
last night i dunno why it hurts when i thought bout ur 'past'. i dunno why i keep thinking that u are just playing and toying around with my feelings.its like u took everything for granted,and me being e victim,i trusted ur sweet nothings.sigh.trust me to think like dat.
but the msg u sent me last night before u went off to bed reli pull me through.i wont give YOU up easily because of this.i dont want us to lose.i dont want anything to ruin what we had built so far too-like u said.but..still,i duno why.i feel very irritated.irritating sey.HAHA.why sey..oh 4get it.i dont want think about anything now.lalalala
@ 8:21 PM
